tHe CuRsE

I'm embarrassed to tell you whats been going on the past couple

days but here it goes...

Ever since I was a little girl, I've been struggling with what I would like to call..Test Anxiety. Why I have it I do not know. Its pretty much ruined my chances at good grades and a decent test grade. I was always the average student. Got 100% on all my homework but for some reason, when it came to taking a test... It was like my life was over. As you all know I've been going to school for EMT classes. We had our first exam last week, Monday I think. Studied everyday, went to the school at 3 to study with my friend until class started at 6. I was pretty confident... Knew the info, but when that test came, I freaked out and lost all the information. Knew I didn't do so well... that night we got our test back.. Failed it. In order to continue with the class you have to pass with a 75% or higher. I was crushed...

Our first test is worth 25% of our grade...because I failed, my teacher told me in order to pass, I would have to get a 90 or better on my next test. No way in hell is that ever happening. So I cried and thought about it a lot. I decided it was a better decision for me if I dropped the class, got my money back and went and tried again in January. I'm broken, I feel like a failure, and that I let everyone down. Mom always says, "As long as you know you tried and this is what you want to do, it doesn't matter how long it takes you, you will succeed."

Life isn't easy... Never has and Never will be. Keep your head held high and never look back.